this week’s mantra

life is a journey
i’ve been falling off track for about a month
or whenever my grandma died
and the semester started to get complicated

it’s time to get back to where i was before all the confusion started

i’m forcing a new state of mind
i will rise in the morning with the intention of that single day
not fearing what will go wrong
who’s love i will lose
i will not worry
i will not overthink
i will not panic

instead i will stay determined to please those around me
by being happy
i will not carry a negative tone in my head and in my voice
as i often do
with sarcasm
or defense mechanism criticism

…because that just drives away the things i wish to keep

worrying will not bring me an answer
it will not bring me a solution
it will only harm my immune system
make my head hurt
and make my contacts hurt

therefore i will save my worrying for times when i need antiperspirant and to keep calm the most
my life is mine
i’m pretty good at not screwing up

i need to get back to the important things:
working hard
studying
cooking well
exercising
loving those around me the best i can
socializing

hey anxiety
take a hike